when you get your expectation, but at the same time you crashes from it... what would you do then??????

it's about a demand. i had to place my hope on someone. where i can only find it through him intercession.

i knit my wait period.
a month.
that's a promise.
but.. in this month, day has been fulfilled.
yes, have been fulfilled.


and then..
i found him closer to me. carrying a parcel which had been wrapped. closer to the distance that my vision could reach.


but ?
i don`t find any parcel which had been seen.
where ?
where it`s goes ?


or.....
am i hallucination ?


aarghhh, i realized its true. for real.
my waiting period was turned out and going to evaporate.
towards the atmosphere highway and no longer affordable.

even, he didn`t say anything to me.
he just suggest me to taking up for it and get it by myself in the distance that was close to me.


but I knew, it was not possible.
not possible with my current condition.


After he saying it, he hurried away and i don`t know where he going anymore.

i really thoughtful
disappointed ?
can i ?

I screamed !!!!
I felt so anger.


but what can I do ?
i couldn`t scold him.
because he's just an intermediary..and i'm a beggar.


then.. i just to cry.


hmmppfff.


and after all of this,,
there only leaves the other option for me.


which is...
waiting for the other intermediaries..
who make all my hope become real.